Nestled in the picturesque landscape of Connecticut, a farm has transformed into more than just a physical space for ceremonies; it has evolved into a sanctuary for self-discovery and healing. Surrounded by lush greenery and rustic charm, an individual wanders, unraveling layers of desires, grief, and reality, seeking solace in the embrace of a solitary black cherry tree.
Following a profound DMT experience, the interconnectedness of life and nature became vividly apparent. The once-struggling cherry tree stood as a poignant reflection of the journey undertaken. Embracing the tree trunk, tears flowed freely, carrying a fusion of emotions and revelations.
Amidst the farm's beauty, a surge of desires emerged. A deep longing for a sustainable home resonated, envisioned as a place for both livelihood and solace for those seeking healing. The yearning for companionship and the shared circle of life battled with the transient lure of vices—alcohol, fleeting sexual encounters—that often serve as a temporary crutch, masking the path to true fulfillment.
Yet, intertwined with desires, the weight of grief was palpable. Memories of lost loves and the repetitive cycle of heartache weighed heavily, shadowed by a lingering sense of shame. Familiarity with loss overshadowed the essence of love, and the fear born from repeated mistakes loomed large, threatening to engulf the spirit. However, within the depths of this emotional turmoil, a realization emerged—that only by experiencing the intensity of these emotions could liberation be found.
The unvarnished reality echoed the tale of a single mother. Home was not merely a physical construct; it resided where my son, faithful puppy, and cherished van door opened. Gratitude permeated our journey across Canada and the USA, leaving indelible imprints. My struggles of entrepreneurship and the insights gained as a psychonaut merged, crafting a narrative of resilience and growth.
In the dance of self-reflection, the parallels between the resilient cherry tree and my wandering soul became starkly evident. We both had weathered storms, almost succumbing to the elements, yet remained steadfast and resolute. Further, these parallels revealed our determination to rise above neglect, to embrace the present with gratitude, and to honor the journey towards self-awareness and growth.
The FCP farm, a haven of safety and serenity, played its part, offering a nurturing space for inner exploration and healing. It bore witness to the unraveling of complexities, fostering the emergence of newfound strength and resolve. As the chapters of integration continue to unfold, the tree stands as a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the boundless potential for healing and growth.
In the embrace of nature, the solitary cherry tree, and the nurturing sanctuary of the farm, the journey towards self-realization continues, imbued with the promise of transformation and newfound purpose.
With love & gratitude,
๐ Ashley ๐